why arent there new things at Suntec City? why are there always alot of prople in suntec despite the fact that there are no new things there..?
went to suntec with ani today. showed her where we hang out or rather window shop like on every pay-day..
to be honest, i've done alot of thinking lately.
i've not been a good fren or sister or daughter all these years. sure i contribute to the household.. sure i'm there for a listening ear. but my actions. i guess, it shows when im not happy with something or someone.
i need to ..
i donno.. alot of things are going thru my mind now. its hard to juggle stuffs especially when all of it is happening at the same time. with school, its exams. with family there's financial. eversince my mum started working, it has become my duty to clean up the mess at home.. they dont even know how to refill the bottles when they finish drinking it.
school..? hah! exams are like in 2 weeks time. less than 2 weeks! and i'm not anywhere near completion. so many books to cover. chapter after chapter. how do you guys study..? i dont have the momentum yet. how? how? how? what do i do..? i know whinning is not getting me anywhere.. but its what i'm capable of at the time being.. im not that bright like tribz and buff.. i need a break. but till when..? last min study? argh! stress all over again.. and i've not even started studying. how like this..??? no boost. no hope. fail.
my brother said something to me that gave me an impact. u know who AP is right..? i told my brother i dont like him. and he replied.. "even he knows that and he (AP) doesnt like you either."
i mean, he doesnt like me..? as in people have righhts not to like other people as well.. ermm.. before this, i've always thot that everyone likes me.. but that statement my brother made, is really shocking. it came as a tight slap across my face. so bingz, dont think that everyone in the world likes you and accept you for who you are.. there's only a FEW people in this world that really cared for me..
there's only like a handful.
papa mami halim hakim ani nenek arwah atok arwah nyang mek nenek yoyo buffay tribz yati firah abg yazid quiet one
and of course, ME, myself and I. and im grateful to them. although i didnt show it, in my heart, they are the dearest.. I LOVE YOU!
and from now on, i think, im not gonna bad mouthed people anymore. peopls like hasnah, merah, AP, farah, yati (nyp) and anyone whom i've come across.. I'M SORRY. its not too late to think of a new year's resolution, right..? i think, im going to try to be a good person from now on. not only on the surface. i mean, alot of people can be nice on the surface but not in their hearts. i think im gonna try that.. be a good person in the heart.. and im gonna smile more. whatever it take, im gonna smile. smile and the world smiles back at you, they say..
to tribz & buff, im sorry if i've spoilt your mood last friday. i didnt want to be like that. its just that, i dont feel like smiling or talking or mingling or gossiping or bitching with you girls.. i just want to be alone.. time out. trust me, you guys didnt do anything wrong.. its me. i'm the one with the attitude problem.. so, im here to apologise.. one thing for sure, you guys did the right thing by ignoring me..
catering tmr.. which means, i get to see busu! *dum ti dum ti dum*
ok.. gotta hit the sack now.
sweetDreamz bingz
ps: buff, nice work. love the song & the pics!
Happy Sister's Day, Ani!! i <3 u!
6:01 AM,
come and sing along with us <3
YOUR'S TRULY;
tribz bingz buffay
don't bother to be nice,
cause we already hate you.
we don't need theraphy,
we have each other.
