ok. 2007 is like the lousiest year for me ever. not only i lost 3 of my family members.. yesterday i just got to know someone else passed away.
and its due to a motorbike accident. kiki, you're very lucky! please get well soon.
this particular guy is none other than my senior in my Band during my secondary school days. he's a percussionist and a very good one at that. during band practices, we would often train together. when i play my smooth bass parts, he would just come in and play with me the beats.. he made the piece sound soOo upbeat and its like we can just play for hours. bass and drums. it matches so well. and i can still remember.. he likes this song "widuri" an old malay song. and the worst part is, i had a crush on him. and to think that, i will never meet him on the streets again.. i regret not telling him. oh gosh. and while watching a movie with the quiet one yesterday, i cried. not about the movie.. but i cried because the world has lost yet one more nice guy.. his name is Mohd Ashyiq. he is one year my senior. and ya, did i say i had a crush on him..?
*sob sob*
why? why? why did he have to go..? why must he go so soon..? does that mean god loves him more..?
well, i pray that his soul rest in peace.
and whenever i hear the song WIDURI being played, it will definately remind me of him.
Asyhiq! I.H.A.T.C.O.Y.
urgh.
life is so unfair.
just 2 years ago, it was one of my classmates. and now, you.
why?
WHY?
why seh..??
didnt even give me the chance to say, goodbye.
god please bless his soul.
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and so, i went out with the quiet one yesterday. he was pissed initially cos i've already watched AVP2.. he actually wanted to watch it with me. but i was too excited. and so, i watched it with Tribz. and i'm not regretting it. i wanted to watch ONE MISSED CALL but he doesnt want to. in the end, we watched AMERICAN GANGSTER. A 2hr 40min movie. and we took the SOFA seat which cost him $25.. bought popcorn and drinks. ermm.. what can i say, it was soOo comfortable. i like it. ALOT. the movie was ok. alot of gruesome scenes. and ya, naked black women..
the movie ended at around midnight. took the cab home. wash up. well, actually just washed my face and legs and wore almost nothing to bed.. at around 5am i wokeup feeling cold. at around 6am i woke up again and told my sis to charge my mobile phone for me. at 7.30am was awaken by my stoopidly annoying alarm.. snooze till around 8am. woke up and called tribz. her voice sounded fresh.. and she told me she just woke up. hmmm.. ok.. and so. went to school today.
alone
u know how i dreaded to walk along the pathway alone. used to walk it with Shanthani.. but she seemed to find her own clique now.. and so, i return to my normal routine. have i told you before that during my secondary school days, i walked to and from school alone. for 5 years. the same route everyday. alone. minding my own business.. oh. how life sucked then. and it still does now..
as you can see, nothing has changed.
nothing. nada. zip.
hmmmmm.. crap.
zaza..? didnt see him online these last few days.. wonder how's he doing.. and ya, okay, i kindda miss that young chap.. he never fail to give me the added courage to follow life's paths.. and i admire him for his courage and bravery to face the challenges..
tribz, i know sometimes i come up with silly communication topics.. so just bear with me..
buff, i know sometimes i get on your nerves.. just bear with me..
and i know that sometimes i am petty and insensitive and i get overly stupid.. so just bear with me... ermm.. im sorry if i've hurt your feelings. i know sometimes i speak without thinking.. ok, what i wanna say is, THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE & THERE for me all these years.. i'm blessed and touched in more ways than one. may 2008 brings in more joy and achievements!!
to zaza, i love you bro! thanx for believing in me.
godBLESS, <3 bingz
2:44 AM,
come and sing along with us <3
YOUR'S TRULY;
tribz bingz buffay
don't bother to be nice,
cause we already hate you.
we don't need theraphy,
we have each other.
